The Disconnect.

Read: Its a bright sunny morning and you open your eyes but for some reason you don’t feel bright and sunny inside. That’s the morning I have someday’s and it bothers me because I can’t seem to figure out why. Do you ever wake up and feel down? You start your day expecting the worst, or even just feeling sad for absolutely no reason? There are times that this happens to me and it makes me feel so confused. I wonder if other people wake up this way or is it just me?

On days like these I could have the simplest conversation with someone, yet it could bring a thousand emotions out that I didn
‘t even realize I had. I automatically get the insecure feeling as if every person is against me that day. I try to tell myself its just me and its just a bad day. Its draining isn’t it? When you feel like something is wrong but you can’t seem to put your finger on it. Today is one of those days for me and I couldn’t figure out what exactly I should do to make it better. I kept staring at my phone, going back and forth through different conversations. Each one of these conversations were making me angry to look at, and then I was switching screens to open up something else that made me feel the same. Then I asked myself, why am I doing this?

PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN.

 

Do something productive. Isn’t there something better you have to do than be angry? Then I looked around and I saw my computer. HELLO! If you’re feeling a type of way, why don’t blog about it? That’s why I started the blog isn’t it? Then I tried to figure out what was it that made me hesitate? Maybe I felt this entry won’t be as interesting as the last. Or that maybe this entry wouldn’t have the same effect on people. I started this blog to show people that there’s everyday things that we go through and can relate to without even realizing.

I will have entries that will lure people in and have them feeling like they’re watching a movie. I’ll also have entries like this where its just my daily dose of emotions that I’m going through. In one way or another I do hope to help everyone and also share some of the raw stories I’ve experienced and never shared. The generation we live in now is so disconnected from the real world. The times where I do wake up in the morning not understanding my emotions I’ve noticed that when I do put my phone down I seem to feel so much better. I feel like a lot of us don’t take the time to sit and sink into our emotions anymore, including myself. We try so hard to bury and bottle them. It’s like we try to forget that we are human beings and its okay to feel. It is okay to cry for no reason, it is okay to not understand each and every bit of emotion. Crying is okay. It cleanses your soul.

I’m one of the most sensitive people you will ever meet. On the outside I have an attitude, I come off aggressive at times. When you get to know me you’ll realize my feelings get hurt more than I wish they would. The days that I wake up feeling flooded with emotions it scares me. I like to close myself off. There’s been so many times in my past that I opened up and shared my feelings to only receive hurt back. This is something I need to work on, and something I’m trying to change. As a person who is not perfect I want to share this change with all of you. I want to let people know, yes we go through experiences that hurt. Yes they may effect the way we act, think and feel. The important thing is that we realize this change and that we push forward to do what we need to fix it.

Relate: This blog is to let everyone reading know that you are never alone. Sometimes you will wake up feeling down, low, or even not good enough. This does not mean that something is wrong with you. There are days you will wake up feeling amazing, and others that you feel like the whole world is against you. The world is not against you. You are NOT crazy for having feelings or emotions. If anything you are doing what the rest of the world should allow themselves to do. You are allowing yourself to feel. When you wake up feeling this way take time for yourself. Allow yourself to DISCONNECT. Put your phone down. Ignore the text messages. Ignore the boyfriend/girlfriend you’re fighting with, the family member who is aggravating you. Take sometime to take a deep breath. Sit down and allow yourself to feel. Enjoy the moments of being you and appreciate the time we have on this earth.

Notate: Leave comments if you’ve ever experience similar emotions, or anything that you would like to share.

21 thoughts on “The Disconnect.

  1. Great job brittinie !! This post is so real and I know a lot of people can relate. We all have those days, whether people want to admit it or not. The fact that you admitted it and describe it so flawlessly just shows you are giving your blog your all and showing your readers the real you. Like someone commented on the last blog, you might be able to save a life. Keep up the great work !

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  2. You are a true inspiration not only to me but to the world, to someone who takes the time to read this……. There are many of us truly going through these exact emotions but yet cannot convey it or put it into words! You’ve conveyed it as many of us don’t have the nerve or are afraid to share these thoughts because to rest of the world were different, we think we’re alone, yet and still we aren’t because there’s many of us whom go through this but just are to ashamed to admit to it….. Your testimony will help others to be inspired that it is truly okay to have emotions, live them and to our experience in life is what has molded us to who we are today 👌🏻 I love you and I’m proud of you, even more proud of the woman you’ve become && the proudest to call you my daughter❤️ Keep up the great work and inspiration! Very intriguing && cannot wait for the next blog☺️
    I love 💜you,
    Mommy

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  3. “Sit down and allow yourself to feel. Enjoy the moments of being you and appreciate the time we have on this earth.” Your posts are so relatable and I am happy to subscribe to this blog. We all need those days where we need to decompress and center ourselves. Life can get crazy sometimes so finding something that we love to enjoy and makes ourselves happy is crucial and essential. I am happy you started something that you always wanted to do! I can’t wait to hear more from you! ❤

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  4. I find your blog very inspirational Brittinie.. so many people have these feelings that they cannot share with others and I look forward to reading more posts ❤️❤️ Love you keep it going it’s great to read something real on social media instead of people’s drama lol

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  5. I believe when you take your time in Meditating on yourself instead of randomly following groups of personalities. You’ll figure out the habits. The “cold hearted” style the some people run with, I believe people assume a stone is a form of adulthood. Smh…. Saddest thing you can see sometimes.

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  6. Literally loving everything that you’re writing right now! This is the first blog I’ve found in which I feel I can really relate to what’s been written. You’re so talented in the way that your writing truly evokes feeling, and hits a cord. Super inspirational ❤ ❤

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    1. Thank you so much! Words cant express how much it means to me when other talented writers tell me that my writing hits a spot for them. I’m so glad that you can relate and I really hope in someway or another it can help with anything you’ve ever felt! Thank you so much for the kind words and I hope I can hear more feedback from you in the future! ❤

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  7. I’m trying my best to deal with this now.. I find myself jumping from one place to the next, only to feel the same way with everything I do.. it’s always something.. I’m so trying to take my time with everything.

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    1. Sometimes its hard to really sit down and deal with each issue at once. It seems like a lot of the times issues all seem to jump out at people at one time. That’s when we feel our world crashing. Sometimes you have to take a breather for you, and realize right now YOU are the most important person. Yes we have others around us that depend on us, but they’re won’t be any “us” to depend on if we stress ourselves to death. Take time for you, take a selfish day off and do something that relaxes you. Shut your phone off and go get your nails done and close out the world for YOUR thoughts. You love writing, close out the world and write. You deserve it girl. Don’t ever forget it ❤

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  8. I honestly enjoyed reading this entry because I can definitely relate to it! I’ve had days where I woke up feeling as if I wasn’t important to the people around me. But then I think again and try to forget about the negative thoughts that come to mind. Beautiful writing and good advice you gave. From your writing I can tell you enjoy it, so please keep on! You’re awesome. Xoxo -Jaliza

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    1. Thank you so much Jaliza ❤ I'm so happy that you were able to relate and I really am so glad that you took your time out to read and comment. I hope that many more of my entries can be relatable as well. Thank you so much girl ❤

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  9. This is exactly why I have spent the last 5 years without a having a phone plan. There’s something about being able to fall off the grid every once in a while to enjoy my surroundings that makes me feel like I’m finally living.

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